July 13th, 2006

Current Music: something corporate Security: Time: 09:14 pm Current Mood: distressed

almost 2 months of being home and ive almost unpacked my stuff. i miss school so much, i love being home but still things are just really really weird here sometimes. i miss him sometimes. and i dont know what to do. i want to be friends. i want us both to be happy instead of always pretending we are when we see each other. i never realized how hard this way going to be. christopher comes home soon though!! i am so excited to see him ive missed my big bro so much. and carries coming up on saturday!! i cant wait to see her either. and i am so excited to see berta!! i miss her. i still have so much unpacking to do. this is harder than i thought.

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May 25th, 2006

Security: Time: 04:51 pm Current Mood: bouncy

im done with my freshman year of college!!! now lets just hope i passed :) home tomorrow!!

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May 10th, 2006

Current Music: hootie and the blowfish - im going home Current Location: 2110 Washington Security: Subject: ahhh Time: 05:12 pm Current Mood: anxious

i need my screamy spot right now. im confused. scared. excited. anxious. basically everything i felt right before i graduated a year ago. i cant believe its been that long. it seems like just yesterday i was walking on the stage at frothingham concentrating so much on not falling off. and frothingham park.. how many amaizing summer nights were spent there just hanging out. the summer scares me too though. i know it can never go back to how it was.. but what is it going to be like? i cant wait to see everyone at home. ive missed everyone so much!! but i dont want to lose touch with people at school!! and i want berta to come home :( i cant believe were almost sophmores in college. i only have a week left of classes then only 3 finals. all of which im going to fail, im scared of that. but at least i know i have an A in pysch!! i love umass im so happy i came here. :) next year im living on the floor right above mine, which of course would be the top floor in the tower, floor 22!! im excited my floor is going to be awesome. i guess im just anxious to see whats going to happen. i want to enjoy every moment because i know its going to be gone before i know it. i cant wait to see everyone at home!! ill be home may 25th!! imissyou.

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April 20th, 2006

Current Music: sublime Security: Time: 03:45 pm Current Mood: content

i love my friends :) and i cant believe people still read this haha maybe ill keep it up for a little.. maybe. so its 80 degrees today and i cant wait for the summer now!! its going to be so much fun!! i want to live at the beach :) (meg we should move to the beach) i cant believe schools almost over for me and a bunch of my friends are already out. im going to be stressing out so much these next few weeks. things are better with everything, i think. i really dont know anymore and im sick of thinking about it. i wanna go back outside now, but instead i think i might get some work done, or i might go back outside. :)

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April 19th, 2006

Security: Time: 01:58 am Current Mood: confused

funny how those lyrics still hold true.. this is so weird i dont know how to feel about any of this. part of me wants to go right back to him but the other part knows its not going to work. not now at least. and im having fun here. i just cant help but think of what im missing out on. i have so much going on this week im stressing. and i need him. im so confused. i still dont want it to end.. i think.

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January 18th, 2006

Current Music: death cab Security: Time: 09:47 am Current Mood: drained

There's no blame for how our love did slowly fade, And now that it's gone it's like it wasn't there at all. And here I rest where disappointment and regret collide, Lying awake at night. so vacation was awesome.. :) i dont want it to end

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September 25th, 2005

Current Music: unwritten law- your my angel Security: Subject: its been a looooong time Time: 12:29 pm Current Mood: crazy

wow so i havent updated this in such a long time so i figured it was about time. i love college, its amazing here.. i love everyone here. the people on my floor are awesome and my ra is the shit. umass is crazy, everyone has to come visit me soon!! friday night bobo chris and nicole all surprised me with a nice visit! it made me happy.. then bobo and chris came back saturday night! and meg is coming up next friday!! then evans coming up to take me home for columbus day weekend!! i cant wait to see my puppy i miss him so much. the other day i was on the phone with my mom and she let me say hi to rocket and he burped in the phone! it was so cute!! i miss my parents too. and my little brother. but hes running and doing all this cross country stuff so hes been really busy. school work hasnt been bad at all. all my classes are cool, except philosopy, so i dropped it :) biology kind of sucks because i dont think my professor is very good at teaching. but were working on stem cells and i like those so its cool. but im really stinky after last nights festivities so i need to shower and get food.. i love and miss you all..

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July 14th, 2005

Current Music: lifehouse- you and me Security: Time: 08:39 am Current Mood: excited

so im leaving in a few hours.. not done packing.. i cant wait to get away. ive been thinking about it and although im gonna miss everyone i really want to see everyone else! well i really dont have anything to say besides i got facebook so facebook me! peace

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June 22nd, 2005

Security: Subject: im 18!!!!! Time: 12:48 pm Current Mood: loved

i never realized i could cram so much into one 24-hour period. i had by far the best birthday ever yesterday. well it started when i got to work monday morning and realized that they didnt get me one cake but they got me two!! it was amazing. so after eating a piece of the oreo cake (biddy said they tried to get an oreo cheesecake for me but couldnt find it)i contiuned to do nothing all day. its great being one of the three people working on crates. but then i went home and did illegal things of course. i went to bertas around 11 for a surprise that sadly didnt work out as planned but was still amazing. while trying to make sure michelle wasnt dead and eating all my candy berta gave me my birthday came!! so of course where did we go but wendys and 7-11!! well after spending about $30 among all of us on scratch tickets we decided i had no luck since i only won $2. the lady at 7-11, patty, even bought me one!! she was funny we said there til almost 2. then it was off to the other obvious place to go, walmart!! sadly we never made it inside. as we drove up to walmart berta saw a carriage that needed to be hit. so after pushing lots of carriages together we ended up pushing a carriage into a car.. well after that we left. we went back 5 min later to make sure we didnt actually hurt the car. once we determined the car was fine there wasnt a scratch we decided it wa best to not go into walmart. instead we decided to drive down some of the creepiest roads ever. by around 4 we decided it was time to head home. after stopping in 7-11 again to pee and say hi to patty, berta came up with a wonderful idea!! after dropping courtney off so she could get to work on time and grabbing lots of blankets, we were off to the beach to watch the sunrise!! well we didnt make it in time to actually see the sunrise.. but it was still amazing. the view was beautiful this early in the morning. we went on a cute little sand bar and picked up sand dollars and got squirted by huge clams. after a while berta noticed that the ocean was closing in around us so we went back to where we left our blankets. michelle and i ended up going back over to take some pictures and look at some pictures!! about 2 min after we went back to the beach the sand bar disappeared! we hung out on the beach for awhile and took lots of pictures then decided around 7 that it was time to head home. after we all took a short nap on the way home. i drove rachel home and got home to my grandma. we hung out for a bit then it was back to the beach with evan troy and rachel!! me and rachel lied out and talked for a bit while the boys played frisbee. then i fell asleep before i put sunscreen on. (my back and the back of my legs are kinda burnt..:/) i woke up in time to see troys amazing sand city though!! it started to get cold so we decided to go home and go mini golfing. the couples tied at 113 each. then me and ev dropped them off picked up my present and went to my house for an amazing lemon chicken dinner. my mommy even got me an ice cream cake!! she put out both the ice cream cake and the white cake biddy bought me and decorated them with little stitches and his cousins!! my brother quizzed me and of course i knew all of them :) then it was time for presents!! i got lots of new stitches that i didnt have and cute things from ae. after taking almost every different picture we could with me my mom my grandma and evan in it, me and evan left for his surprise!! we went to borderland for a little to watch the sunset, but we missed it.. it was ok though because it was still pretty. then he gave me his present, a portable dvd player and meet the fockers!! i love them both. so of course we had to use it while we were out there. when it got to buggy and too dark we decided to find another place to watch the movie. we went to a gas station where i spent $20 of evans money on scratch tickets and this time i won $15!! we ended up going to mcdonalds to get some food and watch the rest of the movie. we went home around 11:30, just in time to see detroit force a game 7 in the nba finals! then finished watching the last 20 min of the movie. at around 12:30 evan tucked me into bed and i think i was asleep before he even got out of my house. so yes that was my birthday. thank you everyone for making it the best day ever!! i love you all!!

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June 19th, 2005

Security: Subject: a little late.. Time: 10:19 am Current Mood: bouncy

but as of june 14th at approximatly 8:26pm the 34B red bra society has been created and i am happy to say that i am one of the first four members!! i am also happy to say my birthday is on tuesday!!!!!!!! i wanna go to the beach again.. only to horseneck beach.. so tell me if you wanna go its supposed to be really nice that day!!

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